I told my mom I wished I had a different mother?

My mother was Narcissistic, and never loved me for who I really was, only for what I did. Because of her I developed a compulsion to try to please everybody, and never learned how to be myself or what I really liked, because I was always doing things to try and gain her affections. Today I told her in an e-mail after she had sent me one trying to make me feel guilty for asking her to help me pay my parking tickets (I'm in college and don't have any money) that I was sorry I had her as a mother, and I wished I had a different one. Am I a horrible person?